Breathing Is Easier Than Not

The light has broken through the darkness. My faith in my wife, the courage we shared in separating, has been rewarded.

I spoke with my wife yesterday, after two straight weeks of not hearing from her at all. She assured me that all was well, we are still married, my faith in her and what she is doing is not misplaced, and that she wants to see me. She is working at the college we both attended tomorrow, and we are meeting there for coffee.

She is very impressed that I have discovered who I am without all the anger.

She says she feels better. Much better, about herself and about our situation.

I told her I needed something to believe in. She said, 'Well, I am right here.'

I told her about my three part mantra, that which I repeat to myself whenever the going gets rough and I am afraid of the future.
Part One: I am still married (she said, 'Yes, you are.')
Part Two: The last thing she said as she was leaving was 'Goodbye for now.' (she said 'And I meant it.')
Part Three: I trust my wife (she said, 'As you should.')

We are both getting healthier. We are getting stronger. We are getting better.

I am so full of optimism about my future with her. I can feel the power we jointly generate flowing around me even now; yesterday during the conversation it was almost intolerable.

She is really pleased that our diplomas are framed, even mine is up on the wall. It looks very impressive.

I can see a little more clearly now... the rain is lifting, and the rainbow I was praying for has unveiled itself.

My thanks to the Goddess... for my wife, the fairest of Her daughters.

We have so much yet to do, but it is getting done.


I am happy, for the first time in four months, for the first time in twenty years. I feel unburdened, lighter, now that I have released all the weight I carried for so long. I thank my wife for her patience, her understanding, her power, her support, her love, and her faith in me.

We are not finished here yet, but we are making progress. And that is something to crow about.
Blessed Be to all.